During this year’s Poland camp the Lord showed me that I have the greatest thing in the world – He gave me the best privilege: I’m in the church life, I know His voice, I hear His word, I can enjoy Him, and I can have a close relationship with Him!
Many times I wondered: “Why me? I’m a nobody. I don’t know how to do anything, and I fail at many things”. But the Lord needs people like that! If all of my attempts were successful, He wouldn’t be able to be everything to me! To become overcomers we need to give even the smallest things to the Lord, for example the sweeping the floor or being on time! If we practice turning to the Lord in these small matters, we will be able to give Him the greater matters as well, and we will be able also to listen to His voice when making important decisions.
I was also touched by the matter of being completely for the Lord. “I need to close my heart towards the world and open it up only to the Lord” – the brother said this perfectly! You know, I can dress up like this world, listen to music, have a boyfriend, go to meetings and say that I’m a Christian – but if I do all these, I can’t say that I’m for the Lord. If I behave like my worldly friends, I will be judged by God just like them – death awaits me. If I want to be for the Lord I need to give EVERYTHING up!
But I realized that I can’t give the world up by myself – I need the Lord! I can’t, but He can! Leaving Egypt isn’t something in the future – it is taking place today in my spirit! Even though I’m not able to be in my spirit continuously, I can do my best to touch my spirit – and when I access it I am in the heavens!
I really liked one brother’s example: “Lord, I want You to be one with me in my anger towards that man! Let’s be angry at him together!”. And that’s when the Lord says “It’s not him that’s the problem. It’s you”.
One more word, which was the most important for me: If we can’t let go of something, we shouldn’t fight, try or attempt anything – let’s just eat Jesus every day! Amen! [sharing from the recent Poland Conference for the Young People by sister Debora L (Poland) from her top enjoyment]
